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Server Maintenance

LK — Thu, 10 May 2012 16:25:31 +0000

If the site seems a little screwy or sluggish today, be advised the hosting server is undergoing some maintenance.

Things should be back to normal soon.

Sorry for any inconvenience.

~LK

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Site Update – Facebook comments enabled and Twitter feed added

LK — Fri, 27 Apr 2012 14:07:47 +0000

Just added the functionality to post comments using your Facebook profile. For those who prefer to remain anonymous, you can continue to log into the site with your private ID, or if you’re REALLY paranoid, you can also leave a comment simply by entering in a name of some sort and a valid email address.

In far less important news, my Twitter feed has also been added to the sidebar.

Have a great day, people!

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NIGHTMARE RIR – REMASTERED

LK — Wed, 11 Apr 2012 05:11:45 +0000

Huge news for Nightmare RIR fans!

In light of the film’s 3-year anniversary, I have gone back into the studio and re-rendered this beast in a much higher quality. Three years ago, YouTube had some pretty ridiculous restrictions compared to today in terms of video size and length as well as copyrighted material. As a result, the film had to be broken up into three parts, with each needing to adhere to a 200MB file size limit (ugh!). In addition, the film’s original ending track, Nightmare On My Street, had to be omitted and a generic Nightmare track was thrown in it’s place.

Now, the film comes to you in a totally remastered, re-rendered, one-part version with the original ending track restored. Below are a few comparison shots between the 2009 upload and the new 2012 version.

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The Way Delivers — Movie Review

LK — Fri, 06 Apr 2012 21:25:29 +0000

#1 best-selling independent film on iTunes

“The real hero of this film is the landscape itself. The El Camino de Santiago, (or St. James Way), traverses France and northern Spain, where it ends in Galicia, at a cathedral that supposedly holds the body of the Apostle James. The journey takes us through villages, cities, rural trails, and finally, to the Atlantic Ocean itself.”

http://sibob.org/wordpress/?p=10762

“Anyone who is tired of watching the typical Hollywood blockbuster movie should see this rare gem about the power of transformation.”

http://bfgb.wordpress.com/2012/03/15/the-way-2011/

“We’re all searching for something. Faith, answers, guidance, beauty, fresh air, history. We all go on journeys.”

http://dameswhodish.com/2012/03/13/you-dont-choose-a-life-you-live-one/

“It’s a simple beautifully done film about a father coming to terms with his son’s untimely death against the backdrop of one of history’s most revered pilgrimages.”

http://www.theredheadedtraveler.com/2012/03/el-camino-de-santiago.html

“Estevez delivers an extraordinary film that sadly hasn’t received a whole lot of attention. If you want a great feel good movie, THE WAY is definitely worth the extra effort to seek out.”

http://kdvr.com/2012/03/02/review-the-way-dvd/
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“Sheen steals the show. He is a great actor, always takes whatever role he plays and makes it unique, and this one is another worthy notch on his growing belt of accomplishments.”

http://explorernews.com/northwest_chatter/article_ee5d8dea-6241-11e1-bea2-0019bb2963f4.html

“one of the best surprises of 2011…daring in its simplicity and inspirational without trying too hard.”

http://www.hollywoodsoapbox.com/?p=6993

I remember when I found Emilio Estevez’s Twitter page last year. I was a little out of the loop as far as what he’d been up to since he appeared on an episode of Two and a Half Men a few years prior. I was intrigued to see him working on a new movie, titled The Way. I’d been a huge fan of two other films he wrote, directed, and starred in: The War at Home and Bobby. Both were unique and powerful in their own respective rights and quickly found their way to my DVD collection. So naturally, when I found out about the new project, The Way, I dove right in and brushed up on all the available information on the development process and followed the news on the movie all the way to it’s U.S. theatrical release in October 2011.

Admittedly, I wasn’t overly interested in the premise at first. The setting and subject matter didn’t really appeal to me all that much with the type of person I am and the things I’m normally into. I sensed a certain religious tone in the plot, and never being a religious person I thus tend to avoid films that seem to center around it (more on this in a bit). I had never heard of the Camino de Santiago and didn’t have a strong grasp on what exactly it was. But, I’m a huge fan of both Emilio and his father, Martin Sheen, and that loyalty carried me to the only theater that was showing the film here in Louisville, KY.

I’m so glad I went.

This was easily the most touching film I’ve seen in a long, long time. Martin Sheen shines as he gives a stellar performance in the lead role. I agree 100% with every article I read that claimed it would be a cinematic tragedy if he wasn’t nominated for an Oscar. His portrayal of Tom Avery immediately thrust into the shrine of my most beloved characters ever on the big screen. From the opening moments where he finds out his son Daniel (played by Emilio Estevez) has been killed in a tragic accident in the Pyrenees while walking the Camino, to his bold decision to continue the pilgrimage in his honor, to his imminent meltdown, all the way to his epic transformation…….it was like an enthralling book I just couldn’t put down.

One of the most touching elements that makes this movie work so well for me is the father-son interactions we see between Tom and Daniel. At times it truly feels like we are invited into their personal lives and get to see them away from the camera. This accompanied by watching Martin’s performance as Tom sees the body of his late son is something extremely rare and privileging to view, as one can only imagine what is going through Martin’s mind as he pretends his real life son really is dead. My heart aches every time I see it.

Joost, Sarah, and Jack are excellent in their supporting roles. One of the main aspects I really like about their casting is that all are true to their characters’ origins. Yorick van Wageningen (Joost) really is Dutch, Deborah Kara Unger (Sarah) is Canadian, and James Nesbitt (Jack) is really from Ireland. Each have their own personal reasons for walking the Camino, and it’s very interesting to watch how Tom (Sheen) takes to each one of them. He’s very distant and at times even cold and resentful toward them for much of the film. It’s really something when he finally begins to loosen up and understand the meaning of human connection and value of true friendship.

Out of all the likeable characters in the film, my personal favorite is one we only spend a little bit of time with. Ishmael is the perfect example of what every man should be. Honest, pure, and a complete gentleman. He is detrimental to Tom not only continuing his pilgrimage, but reaching his final destination. Each time I see the film I applaud Ishmael and his modest chivalry. His character is a strong piece of the story that really symbolizes how people should co-exist and treat one another.

Something else I feel deserves mention is the beautiful soundtrack. I truly feel this is an important aspect of the movie that hasn’t gotten proper recognition. Tyler Bates provides the riveting music while the magical Nan Vernon supplies her often times mesmerizing vocal melodies. The two create an ensemble of hypnotizing harmony in several tracks of the score. It definitely enhances the movie’s soul, and them some. Not forgetting additional contributions by Alanis Morissette and James Taylor, The Way Soundtrack is the perfect album to put on while you relax and wind down. I actually bought it on iTunes which marks the first musical purchase for me since Guns N’ Roses finally released Chinese Democracy a few years ago. The soundtrack has quickly made it’s way to not only my iPod but also my fiancee’s (she’s a professional massage therapist).

The Way is a brilliant work and a testament not only to the inspirational, evolving talent of Emilio Estevez as a writer/director, but also a sound reminder of the superb acting ability of his father Martin Sheen. With a strong supporting cast, beautiful cinematography (stunning on blu-ray), and a wonderful soundtrack — The Way is a warm, feel-good movie the whole family can enjoy. A true labor of love that I as an artist of a lesser caliber can fully relate to and appreciate. I applaud Emilio for taking the reigns of his project and keeping it his own. In today’s world of bloated CGI and mainstream hoopla, this film succeeds in being refreshingly different. It succeeds in being religious to an extent without attempting to shove religion down the viewer’s throat. It takes the simplest of life’s traits and emotions and keeps them simple. It doesn’t try too hard to ensure you get the message. It places the viewer in position where the message comes to you. And it gets better with every viewing.

I highly recommend seeing this film.

Buen Camino!

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Suicide Solution — Therapy for Depression and Feeling Better

LK — Fri, 24 Feb 2012 21:00:40 +0000

STOP!

Put the gun down.

Seriously — take a deep breath, relax a second, and think about it…

Recently, I noticed some pretty grim status updates on Facebook from an old acquaintance of mine. Now, I’m no stranger to talk of being “done with it all” and “sick to death of life”. I read this stuff seemingly every day from one person or another. The wonderful world of social networking has granted us all the opportunity to take the most morbid thoughts of our darkest hours and throw them right out in public for all eyes to see. Hence, I normally don’t pay any heed to such things as it’s become pretty common in our society. But, one string of status quotes in particular got my attention a few nights ago from said Facebooker.

It started with:

“I hope this all works out as planned”

then:

“Leaving my old life behind and all the bad memories with it…”

“Ive never felt so ready to be done with all this”

then finally, the one that really raised a brow:

“Elysian fields ill see you soon….god forgive me..”

Something seemed different to me. I didn’t interpret this as the usual attention-starved jargon, desperately screaming for some daytime drama. This clearly sounded like the guy was planning to kill himself. Being a person who has danced with the devil and fought that urge my whole life, I couldn’t just “walk on by” and assume this was just another example of the aforementioned drama-invite and say nothing. I wrote the guy a pretty in-depth piece of my perspective of life and the things that cause these feelings of black and nothingness. I’ll share these thoughts with you below, in hopes that someone out there who is going through something similar may find some sort of comfort or inspiration:

“I’m not sure if any of this will mean anything to you or not……………but, I have battled severe depression my whole life. I’ve tried meds, shrinks, alcohol, talking to friends, family, etc. Nothing helped. Nothing. Alcohol temporarily slowed it down, but never cured it. I felt alone for years and no one anywhere understood. They still don’t, and a part of me still feels alone in several aspects. My darkest hours have been extremely black, numb, scary, painful, and eye-opening all at once. In the past I’ve put the barrel of a .357 magnum in my mouth and thumbed back the hammer, with my finger on the trigger, applying pressure, ready to silence the pain and take that journey. It’s amazing how the world looks to you in this moment, when you’re so close to leaving this place and entering the other side, fully realizing your life could end during the next split second. Any moment of uncertainty or loss of focus can change it all — forever. Your heart pounds and your lungs quiver. Your stomach tightens as your body begins to tremble and shake. A hundred thoughts are racing through your mind a thousand miles a second. Nothing makes sense, yet some things become so clear. And if I was a betting man, I’d say anyone who has done this has either A) pulled the trigger and killed themselves -or- B) taken something positive away from it and applied it to their life.

Me personally, for much of my life I have viewed the world as a foul place full of fuck-headed fuckstains. Many of whom I often have to resist the urges of smashing their fucking skulls into pieces and smearing the remains all over the pavement, like some kind of twisted art. Anything to make myself feel better. Like a sweet release. Then, just as fast, I turn these thoughts onto myself. And for anyone perceived as ‘normal’ who might read this, the first reaction is always, “Wow, you need help.” Part of that is correct. But, the “help” they often refer to is something I’ve been there and done, and it didn’t HELP. Doctors don’t care about how you’re feeling. They don’t care about the special place they are in and that they have a REAL opportunity to possibly make a REAL difference in someone’s life. No. Instead, most of them only care about how quickly they can interpret 35% of what you have to say so they can quickly prescribe you some meds and get you out the door so they aren’t late for their fucking tee off. And sadly, this is society’s typical version of “help”. No thank you. I’ll keep my money, and my dignity, as a matter of fact.

FACT: You’re the only one that knows how you’re truly feeling. It is this undeniable logic that shapes my belief that you are also the only one who can do something about it. Shrinks, meds, alcohol, hard drugs — these are only ‘band-aids’. They only slow the ‘bleeding’ and temporarily distract you. Meanwhile, the true problem persists and continues to get worse. I found that spending less time trying to get everyone else to understand how I’m feeling and spending a lot more time trying to find a resolution is the better way to attack the problem. Because seriously, what is making someone else understand going to do? How is it going to help? Hearing someone say “I understand” doesn’t solve my problem. Having them put their arm around me and hold me while I cry doesn’t solve my problem. Sure, it feels good to know someone cares. It truly does. But again, does this make your root issue go away? If so, well congrats, you’re done! And guess what? You were never severely depressed. You were just lonely, and in need of companionship. For those of us who struggle with severe depression — loneliness is just one facet of our entangled web of complexity, and it takes more to remedy our situation. I’ve spent time wrapped in someone’s arms, knowing they truly care for me, but yet still hurting inside and still entertaining the thoughts of death or otherwise escape. There is still a problem to address.

So, what do you do? How do you find the solution? Simple — look within yourself. The answer is there. It’s always there. If you don’t know how to unlock it, certain people can help. Again, don’t waste time talking to people who don’t get it. Talk to those who are already fighting the battle. Other people who are effected by this illness. They might not know exactly what specific thoughts you have or what issues are individually plaguing you, as depression tends to effect everyone in it’s own unique way. But, odds are they have a pretty good idea and can offer realistic perspectives for you to consider. But, I strongly urge you to simply look in the mirror. Your best friend and the one who knows you better than anyone else is waiting for you there. He/she is always there, ready to listen and help.

Not long after I spent some serious time laying down my thoughts and figuring out what exactly triggers these horrible emotions, I began to discover some great things. I found that there are two types of things that make up my depression: the things I cannot change, and the things I can. Emotions that spring up while I’m going about my normal daily routine, such as the social anxiety and agoraphobia I’ve dealt with since the cradle. These are natural reactions to crowds and groups of people I’m not familiar or comfortable with and is thus something I cannot change. I can’t turn that emotion off, so I’m forced to deal with it accordingly. Then, there are things that depress me that ARE changeable — such as a job, place of residence, or a personal relationship. These are things that I have the ability to control and change. If you hate your job and it is making your life miserable, leave it and get something else. Don’t be afraid of possible consequences. Your health isn’t worth the risk of doing nothing. I’m not saying just get up and walk out, not having a clue where you’re going or what you’re gonna do and let your bills pile up. Be sensible. Aggressively pursue another job, land it, THEN WALK OUT. If you’re stuck in a bad relationship that is sucking the life and happiness out of you, do your part to make it better. If you get no reciprocal effort from your other half, end it. You have the ability to make that change. Depression only takes you as far as you let it. Don’t give it an inch!

Sometimes people ask me how I do it. How do I take a crappy situation, and turn it into something positive. Where do I find the will and the energy to pick myself up after a devastating blow. It all goes back to the mirror, understanding where my problems come from, how to deal with them, and ultimately, coming up with a source of positive energy and an outlet for the negative. For me, these two things are exercise and cognitive therapy. I apply both myself. No doctors, no pills. Two very natural ways to not only relieve the toxins in the body that cause the chemical imbalance — but maintaining focus, attitude, determination, and ridding your conscience of the constant negative perspective. Essentially, a clean body and mind. This is my answer. My truth. I found it by searching deep within myself. Does this mean I’m cured? Of course not. I’m still just as susceptible of falling into the funk and stricken with temptation of suicide. But, with these two “medicines” at my disposal I’m much better equipped at handling it and making it through, contrary to how I use to deal with it (juggling the revolver). I strongly urge you to find your source of strength. Your “rock”, or happy place. It can be anything. A hobby, a responsibility, or otherwise. You don’t have to fight the battle alone. Make the choice to get with the program. Not the one everybody always talks about and attempts to drill into your head. Get with your own. Develop your own system. Do what works for YOU.

Also — I think that somewhere deep down, I concluded that ultimately the vile things I feel at certain times along with the sad blackness that still loves to follow me around everywhere I go is because of certain people and the world. And killing myself is LETTING THEM WIN. Letting them get the best of me. At that point when I realized this, I said FUCK THAT. And FUCK THEM. Me continuing to live and doing what I want to do is spitting in the faces of any and everyone who ever tried to hurt me or hold me down. Anyone who ever intentionally tries to wrong me or anyone I care for literally makes a declaration of war in my mind, and I respond ready to shred them to pieces. I don’t make my decisions based on what people say is “right”. I have no respect for society’s consensus. I don’t fear the system. I get off on beating it into the ground. This is my middle finger salute to it all. For me, life isn’t about plotting your exit. What is it going to change? What is it going to accomplish besides bringing a quiet smile to the faces of those who cause strife? Contrarily — for me, life is about how much shit you can take, and keep spitting it back in the faces of those who deserve it. It’s about continuing to move forward no matter what. It’s about saying FUCK YOU to anyone who dares stand in your way. And with that, in addition to the exercise and cognitive therapy, I also have a chip on my shoulder. Extra motivation to put the two to work.

Finally, about finding true love: Believe me, it’s out there. I don’t know exactly what’s going on with your situation, but remember, there’s always another day. Another chapter. I’ve been through the horrible feeling of a serious break up and thinking that I had lost THE ONE and there will never, ever be anyone else like them. While there may never be anyone who matches one individual’s personality to the last detail, there are however, people who can meet your personal needs the same way, if not better, than a previous person did. Don’t get caught up in the feeling that once your current lover is gone — that’s it, you’re done. It just isn’t true.

Remember — YOU are in complete control. No one else. Do right by YOU. Never stop learning and getting stronger. Keep moving forward, no matter what.”

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LK SHOOT EPISODE 68

LK — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 21:36:10 +0000

So, you’re GOING to leave a tip, right? (WTF!?)

The SHOOT OF THE WEEK returns as I get in front of the camera for a little rant about an incident I experienced today where a CASHIER at Roosters restaurant basically demanded a tip from me when I showed up to carry out some food.

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Desert Eagle Mark XIX Review – .50AE

LK — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 19:30:11 +0000

Enter SANDMAN! The newest addition to my family of Iron Justice.

LK’s Firearm Review takes a diligent look at the mighty Desert Eagle Mark XIX in the .50 Action Express caliber followed by firing demonstration (and maybe a special “guest”).

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Some After-Thoughts On The Devil Inside

LK — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 05:30:08 +0000

I took April and her mom to see this with a couple friends last night……

I’d agree that moments of it were really well done. I thought Suzan Crowley (nice name) was fantastic and wished her character would’ve gotten more screen time. She had a very effective presence, as the entire audience’s whispers and random cluttering in the packed theater fell completely silent when she hit the screen. She had us in the palm of her hand the whole segment of her daughter, Isabella, visiting her the first time. Good stuff.

But, the movie overall felt rushed and borrowed a little too much from Paranormal Activity in terms of character development and general presentation. I know there are only so many ways to present a found-footage film, but there was definitely a PA vibe in a lot of it for me. The Blair Witch Project succeeded in making the story a real-life type place and event, whereas The Devil Inside falls a tad short. To me, it never felt like this was something that could really happen aside from Crowley being on-screen, and again, her time with us was limited.

The ending…………… (not really a spoiler but a definite hint of the impact it made, hit the tag if you’d like to know more).

[[Visit blog to check out this spoiler]]

Eh, honestly, the movie left me with the same feeling I have when I’m dumb enough to order a Floyd Mayweather fight: A lot of hype, build up, and a big shit-sandwich at the end. At least this didn’t cost me $55.00. The Devil Inside is raking in millions. But, I have a feeling the sequel is gonna leave quite a bit to be desired for the studio. I was in a packed room filled with what seemed like no less than a couple hundred people, and every one of them left disappointed. Not cool.

If you’re curious about seeing this movie and want my opinion — if you’re looking for a little shock and awe and a few jumps, go see it. You’ll be amused. However, if you want a great movie with a compelling story that develops well and ultimately delivers, save your money. Pop in The Exorcist and see it done correctly.

Beretta 92FS Review – 9mm

LK — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 16:49:38 +0000

Meet Lorenzo!

A follow up video to the Sig Sauer P239 review where the Beretta 92FS made a couple cameos. This review looks a little closer at the 92 and cites some of it’s features.

Sig Sauer P239 Review – .40S&W

Sig Sauer P239 Review – .40S&W

LK — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 00:53:26 +0000

Hello Brutus!

A close, detailed look at the Sig Sauer P239 and it’s nice features.

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